It's 2 in the morning. Perfect time for a new post! The title has to do with balancing everything that's going on and then having come back from Germany to a few things I left behind.
Most people know that I am a busy person. The amount of things that I end up missing because of other stuff is insane. Honestly I think if there was another of me we still wouldn't be able to keep up with everything! Now it's the summer things have cooled off a little but when I was in college it was impossible to do everything so a lot was missed. I missed 4 weeks of band because of exams and a project and a musical. I missed countless music theory classes because of a variety of things. Band kinda took the backseat at the time but then again last year, everything else pretty much took the backseat because of band and the leaving cert. Also it doesn't help with family members in and out of hospital for different things and then having family stuff going on as well. It's hard to keep up with all of that but not impossible. Then there's keeping in touch with people. It's hard enough to keep in touch anyway, let alone when you have a million things on. I don't see my friends from school as much because we're all in different colleges and some have jobs and are away and whatever else. You do lose touch with people from school, that's fine. However there are some people that I don't want to lose. There are a few girls from school that are probably the closest things to sisters I have (by the way this isn't meant to be sappy, after reading it back it comes across like that but it's more of a appreciative thought). Although we are in different colleges and working and whatever else we have kept in contact with each other as best as we could. Then there's meeting up with people from college. I haven't stopped talking to Christina since we the exams ended so we're doing well! There's other people I've been doing well with keeping in touch with but I'm not the only one with things on, everyone does, so again it is hard to keep in touch with everyone you know.
Then in the meantime I'm supposed to find a job. This is extremely frustrating. I hate updating cvs and handing them in to places in the hope of someone hiring you but then it just ends up getting thrown out anyway. The most annoying thing is when a job requires some experience before you can work there. Most places want experience so you can work there. Now how am I supposed to get this experience if I don't have a job? "Must have experience for this job" Well I need a job for experience. Then again if I ended up getting a job then there'd be more balancing. There's also exercise. Now last year all I seemed to do was exercise and I actually liked it. Cycling and walking for up to 3 hours everyday. All of that was working towards the debs. As soon as the debs was over the bike was put back in the shed and has only come out probably about 6 times since then. I've gotten back into exercising but I'm not motivated this time so it's a lot harder. Plus I've taken up jogging instead of just walking. Jogging will slowly kill me. I only jog for about an hour but it's fair to say that if I ever decide to do a marathon I'll be walking it. i would like to be able to jog straight for longer than 5 mins. I jog then walk the jog then walk. I can't jog for long I have to stop and walk for a while. My brother does athletics and can run no problem and wins races and whatever else. He gets the height, the brains and the speed. Meanwhile I was left with the ability fall over thin air. Good job genetics (it's probably not even to do with genetics but it's something science like, maybe, see this is one of the reasons why I'm studying arts)
Now for the loose ends that I left behind. In the midst of everything I went off to Germany and it was like none of it existed the entire time I was there. However it was all waiting for me when I got back. Back to practicing driving, back to exercising, back to catching up with friends, back to all the situations that were left behind. For the first few days in Germany my phone had no service and the place we were in had no wifi so I didn't even get to hear about anything I was missing going on back home. Since I got back I've actually done a lot of stuff I've left behind. I've gotten back into teaching myself how to play the keyboard. I've always wanted to play it so I'm using a dvd and youtube clips and then messing about myself to be able to play it. I can finally play one song fully! Boom bitches! Anyone that knows how much I love the piano and how badly that I want to be able to play it will know that this is huge for me. I can play Mad World by Tears for Fears but it's the Gary Jules and Micheal Andrews cover, god help me trying to play the original! It's not too hard and it is quite repetitive but still I can play one song! I've also been listening to a lot of Tears for Fears since I got back, anyone following me on spotify can probably see that. I cleared out my wardrobe which I've wanted to do since easter. I put up new photos on my wardrobe and now the entire thing is full of photos, no space for anymore! I'm surprised that I actually sorted out all the stuff I left behind let alone all the extra stuff that's been there for ages. I've even planned for things coming up! keep working on keyboard and be able to play more songs, maybe have a session at some point, do more stuff with people, get stuff sorted for Tralee and remember to re-register for college.
So this post probably wasn't as good as the others but ah well. I wanted to write something and I really liked my title for it so I went with it! Also if any of you reading this haven't actually heard the original of Mad World then here's a link to it, I think it's really good but see what you think yourselves anyway http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFsHSHE-iJQ As always I'll end with a quote, seeing as I haven't stopped listening to them it'll be a Tears for Fears quote. This one comes from their song Head Over Heels, "I'm on the line, one open mind, this is my four leaf clover"
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